lol, I just noticed my last post was in january...way to not care about keeping a journal...

now, to at least post something in this godforsaken journal:

I think I'm a little bit in love with the teacher of the maths course I'm currently attending....of course, he doesn't really seem to be available, though....my gaydar is screaming in agony. and it never fails.

I've spent nearly 2 hours making this awesome .gif icon with SC's Jin, with fading text and all and lj won't let me upload because it's too big. fu!

I got the new Tiziano Ferro album 2 days ago.

I friggin love it. half of the songs make me want to dance, the other half make one hell of a background for reading ridiculously romantic/tragic/sexy yaoi manga.

oh btw, I just kind of "discovered" Suzuki Tsuta (--> b-u), and I really love her style. I'm a sucker for coming-of-age, high school, stories, so some of her stories fit perfectly ^_^v

so hard on one of my patients at the moment.

(it's just that he's seriously out of my league. like 99% of the male population.)

yeah...I'm a sad, pathetic person.

jeez, if he killed Kakashi, I'm seriously contemplating quitting the fandom.

and how lame is the whole toad!Naruto thing?! if Naruto finishes Pain off without trouble, I'm leaving Naruto for Bleach. for good.

yeah. I seriously need to get a life.

so..I figured I might as well post whatever's on my mind so my lj account doesn't get deleted.

I've already mentioned somewhere that I have no friends who post in lj, and since I don't have a life either, what's the point of posting here. (especially since nobody reads this....)

so, randomness: I'm thinking about posting some secrets on fandomsecrets...when I have time, anyway...

I've been reading so many secrets there that I got all depressed for not belonging. it's weird, really...I honestly want to be in some kind of fandom. I mean, I read tons of yaoi or slash fics over the last years...I watch all the anime and whatever...I also tried to write fanfics myself, but I suck so bad, I couldn't possibly post any of it...

I have a 3 week vacation because my ward has closed (for cleaning and such) and the best thing I can do with my time is update my hugeass manga collection. for hours.
perhaps I had better get a life....like, a real one.

also: looking forward to going back to school in september. (or kind of...it's only some kind of course to get a real degree, which allows me to study at university in this goddamn country.)
so back to studying german and english and omgwhy!Maths. (I got 5s (that's the worst you could possibly get here, which bassically = fuck up) in elementary school. in the 90s!)

so yeah. another boring post. shutting up now.

so now it's official. I'm ashamed of my profession.

last night (again) my colleague and I had a loooonnnng talk about the rest of us (15 nurses) working at our ward.
it started out with grey's anatomy and me apparently being the only woman on the fucking planet not finding any of the actors fuckable.....and ended with her saying "omg I always thought it was a cliché...you know, nurses being the cheap whores as displayed in each and every fucking tv show or movie or wtf not. but obviously, it's not."

I'm kinda disgusted with my co-workers right now. and with the doctors (men!!!!!) who apparently will fuck anything with a diploma as long as they're willing and / or drunk.

right. I've decided to post random shit anyway. even though i know nobody's gonna read my entries...(or i hope nobody who knows me is gonna read...) [oh and just so you not-readers know... i know "i" is supposed to be "I" but fuck you i don't care.]

last night during work (me=nurse) me and my colleague talked about or docs and how they behave when drunk.
see, surgeons supposedly are the personification of everything lewd and disgusting when drunk. or so she told me as i, who never attends parties or gatherings or wtf ever they wanna call it. (and I don't drink. I once labeled myself as straight edge but alas! i'm just not punk enough. as for the rest of that pretty XXX thing...SO me.)
anyway... what's wrong with people hooking up with colleagues? I've been working there for a year now and i still don't know who had what with who exactly because, quite frankly, i'd rather not know as it is. imagine rounds with one of them, thinking "omfg! he banged XY....and AB ...and CD...."

and they're all old as fuck anyway. and not a sexy kind of old like ...say Jiraiya (which kinda reminds me of the fact that i'm a creep.)

so...I guess I'll not be posting anything else here since...well, duh. I ain't got a life worth talking about...
and furthermore I hereby admit...I only joined lj because I'm a major perv and all the good yaoi pics and fics are posted on lj, locked away...*pout*. so much said, kakairu and leegaara 4ever! *pets inner 10yo*